Merdeka !!

Frankly speaking, I don’t have the spirit of merdeka. Why? Why?

We will celebrate 51 years of Merdeka on 31st August but the joy that I have now is totally different from definition. I'm happy because it is a public holiday but not because it is Merdeka. Sometimes, I fear to think what future hold for Hairee. Life is getting tougher nowadays, …. and the more I think I fear to let him grow big.

I remember telling my close relatives and friends when I was still pregnant that I wanted my baby to be independent just like how my mak did to me but somehow after seeing him now, I just can’t simply say anything right now, just let time justify. I knew he could do it. I just was not so sure about me.

Malaysia is still one of the most peaceful countries. But then, the life we have now been so much different from past, obviously for so many reasons. Today, I don't see many children of different races playing with each other in the playground anymore. It's pathetic how it has become.

Just a thought.